The Earrings I Never Took Off

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Until my mom asked, I kept the earrings in their pouch under a pile of receipts and expired coupons. I forgot I even had them. Back then, I thought if I looked right, said the right things, never let anyone see the mess, I would finally deserve to be loved. I mean, isn't that what everyone tells you? Fix yourself first. Be your best self. Whatever that means. So I did. I fixed everything I could see. My hair, my clothes, my laugh. I practiced smiling in the mirror until my cheeks hurt.

And it worked, sort of. People noticed. They said I looked put together. They said I was glowing. But the person I wanted to notice, he didn't wait. He left before I was ready. And I was left with these earrings and this feeling that I had missed something. I don't know. Maybe I'm still figuring it out. Anyway, I found them on a Tuesday. I was packing up my apartment because I was leaving the city. Graduation was over, the job was in another state, and my lease was ending.

I had four boxes labeled KEEP, DONATE, TRASH, and I DON'T KNOW. The earrings were in the I DON'T KNOW box, wrapped in a napkin from a coffee shop that closed two years ago. I sat on the floor and held them. They were simple earrings with little stones that caught the light, nothing fancy. I bought them for myself when I was twenty-three, right after I decided to become someone else. My name is Leah, and I was the girl who over-prepared for everything. I had checklists for my checklists.

I would spend an hour getting ready for a coffee date, changing my outfit three times, redoing my eyeliner, making sure my earrings matched my mood. I thought if I looked like I had it all together, no one would see how scared I was. It started in college. My roommate, Jenna, was the kind of person everyone loved without trying. She wore sweatpants to class and never brushed her hair, and still, guys would follow her around like puppies. One night, I overheard her on the phone with her mom.

She said, "Leah tries too hard, you know?" And I remember standing in the hallway, holding a tray of cookies I baked for our study group, thinking, she's right. I do try too hard. So I decided to try even harder, but make it look easy. I kept telling myself that if I looked polished enough, no one would notice I was terrified. I bought clothes that looked effortless, I learned to do my makeup in ten minutes, I practiced casual conversation in the mirror.

I even bought these earrings-simple, understated-because I thought they made me look like the kind of person who doesn't need to try. And for a while, it worked. People started treating me differently. At parties, someone would say, "You always look so calm," and I would smile and think, I have you fooled. My boss called me composed. My friends asked for fashion advice. I dated a guy named Marcus who said I was the most put-together woman he'd ever met. I wore those earrings on our first date.

He didn't notice them, but I did. They were like a little secret, a reminder that I was winning. But the thing about winning is, it gets lonely. I remember one night, Marcus and I were at dinner, and he was talking about his ex. He said, "She was a mess, but at least she was real." I laughed and said something like, "Well, I'm not a mess," and he looked at me funny. He said, "Do you ever just let go?" I didn't know what to say.

I went to the restroom and looked in the mirror. My earrings were still perfect. My hair was still perfect. I felt like a mannequin. I don't know, maybe that was the beginning of the end. A few weeks later, he broke up with me. He said I was too controlled, too planned. He said he never knew what I was really feeling. I remember sitting on my bed, holding the earrings, and thinking, but I did everything right. That was the crack. I started noticing how much of myself I had erased.

I used to love painting, but I stopped because it was messy and I didn't have time. I used to sing in the car, but I stopped because someone might hear. I used to laugh too loud, but I trained myself to laugh like a lady. The earrings were part of that. I wore them every day, even when they didn't match my outfit, because they felt like armor. But armor gets heavy. One morning, I was late for work and I couldn't find them.

I tore apart my apartment looking for them, and when I finally found them under the bed, I just sat there crying. I don't know why. It was like they were the only thing holding me together, and I hated them for it. I didn't wear them for a week after that. It felt weird, like going outside without my phone. I kept reaching up to touch my ears, and there was nothing there. My coworker, Sam, noticed.

She said, "You look different." I said, "I lost my earrings." She said, "No, I mean you look kind of... here." I didn't know what that meant, but I started thinking about what I wanted, not what I thought people wanted to see. I started painting again. I bought cheap canvases and made a mess in my living room. I sang in the shower. I laughed at a joke so hard I snorted, and my friend said, "I've never heard you do that before." It was embarrassing, but also kind of freeing.

A month later, I was packing to leave the city. I found the earrings in a box of old receipts. I held them for a long time. They felt cold and light in my hand. I thought about throwing them away, but I couldn't. They were evidence of who I used to be. I put them in my pocket and finished packing. That night, I went to a party with some friends. I wore a dress I never wore because it was too bright, and I put the earrings on.

Not as armor, just as earrings. Someone said, "I love those earrings," and I said, "Thanks, they're old." And I meant it. They were old, from another life. Now I'm in a new city, and I don't know anyone. I don't have a checklist for making friends. I don't have a plan for finding love. I just have these earrings, and a painting I'm working on, and a voice in my head that says I don't have to be perfect. I wore the earrings to a job interview last week.

I was nervous, but I didn't try to hide it. The interviewer said, "You seem really genuine." I don't know if I got the job, but I felt like I passed something else. I still have the earrings. They're in my jewelry box now, not hidden under receipts. Sometimes I wear them when I need to remember that I don't have to be anyone but me. Last night, I was painting and I got blue all over my hands, and I didn't care.

I looked in the mirror and I was a mess, and I laughed. The earrings were still there, catching the light. Find yours at Ethan2040.

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